Day 5

Procrastination is the key to everything, is it not? No, really, somehow in my mind, I have it that if I procrastinate for long enough the task at hand will magically complete itself. Today I have found that not to be the case. Oversleeping, Drinking, Smoking are not propper methods for marathon preparation.

At about 12:30pm I emerge from the jungle, also known as my house. Running shoes on, watch on wrist, hair tied back and greased up from a lack of morning shower. I am ready. Three miles is on the agenda for today. How can I cheat, cut corners, trim it down, or cause it to be more "efficient". Right... That doesn't actually work. A few beers and cigarrettes the night before, its holloween weekend after all. I considered this to be one of those "special occassions" where rules could be broken, kind of like birthdays and parties. I was quickly reminded that when it comes to my drinking and smoking habits, everyday is a "special occassion" and that no other peoples birthdays don't count.

My friends are fantastic, they keep me aware of what I say I want for my life, and they hold me to my word. They call me out, and they can do that because they know that I know it comes from a space of love. Why am I telling you this? I am telling you this because this is why I am running.

Everything that I want to accomplish in my life is greater than myself. I, alone can only do so much. I can run, I can throw in a couple of dollars here and there. I can create only from one perspective and I can only grow where I see fit. When I open up my life and my heart to the world at hand, I have an endless spectrum of possibilities. My life is unleashed, free to grow, develope, thrive as it sees fit. Others are what make that possible.

Today on my run I was thinking about why I want to raise money. Everyone I know says 30,000 is way too big for me. Every so often I believe them. When I believe those people, I do not share myself. I do not spread the word about what it is that I am up to. I want to make a difference in the world. I want to be a part of something so much larger than myself that I blow my own beliefs about what I am capable out of the water.

I want you to share that with me. Please share my blog with people you know, if for no other reason than to have ppl listen to my rambles, or to post a comment every so often and cheer me on as the miles increase.

I love you all. xo


MapMyFitness.com - Regular Run: Regular Run on 10/30/2010

Day 2.

Official training was scheduled to begin yesterday, but after realizing that most of my day would involve travel (my soccer team had a game up in bakersfield) i decided, no thank you.

Soccer:

Today was an out of focus sort of day. My eyes felt crossed, my feet felt heavy and my reaction was lagging. For the first half of practice we warned up doing kicking, sliding, diving drills. For the latter section of practice I did strength and core drills with our keeper coach. He set up a drill that he told me he thought only I would be able to do. I think that is a compliment. one legged hop hop hop land on other legs and dive. sit up's while throwing a soccer ball like a medicine ball, and then sit ups while catching with one hand and tossing back same hand. no pushing urself up with elbows or hands. I do enjoy a good sweat. Today felt like summer again.

Ground Zero:

I am starting with 1 mile. Yes. Today I ran for 9 minutes and 30 seconds. I sweat, I groaned, I pushed. The fact that I play soccer and train daily does not mean I am a fabulous runner. In fact, quite the contrary. I am built/trained for short bursts of energy and for strength-- lifting. The fact that I hate failure, and I hate being "slow" will be a fight I will learn to fight along the way. Reminding myself each footstep that this really isn't about me. In fact, success rarely is in my opinion. I don't win by being selfish, I don't win by pummeling the shyt out of my workouts. I win by focus, pushing, and sticking to it.


MapMyFitness.com - Training Log for moshin617

Running with a cause

Over this passed weekend I registered for the LA marathon. With mixed emotions I hesitantly clicked on the registration button. Name: Elissa Barnes Age: 25 Have you ever completed a marathon before: No. Within my chest the hollow cavity of worry shape-shifted into a swell of excited energy. I was about to take on the world, one mile at a time. Marathon has been on my long, "I think I would like to do that maybe someday" List. The time has come.

This is a privilege, honor and an opportunity for me to take on something for myself, while taking on two agendas much bigger than myself. For me this is about my health, not just my physical fitness, but my mental and emotional health. For years I have battled with depression and for years I have come out on top due to my dedication to diet and exercise. Lately I have been indulging some not so healthy practices resulting in some very predictable downfalls. Life is too short to not make the most of every moment. Running this marathon is a gift to myself, my life and my health.

My dear friend Michelle has been undergoing intense scoliosis treatment to correct two severe curves in her spine, the lower one at 57 degrees and the upper one at 34 degrees. She has been working so hard, doing more hours of physical work in a day than most of us do in a week, day after day after day. Her commitment to be able to heal, recover and transform her body is so inspiring and her openness to share her experience will help others (her blog is at http://backfactor.blogspot.com/) . Michelle's treatment will cost about $30,000 for this year alone. A group of her friends (about 10 so far) have come together to run this up and coming marathon to raise aware and money to help our friend take on her health and quality of life.

The second opportunity that has presented itself is for me is to be able to raise money for our next Soccer Outreach event being held at the Home Depot Center. My commitment to recreation as a powerful tool to heal the world has only grown since joining and training with Santa Monica College Women's Soccer. Our next event is still being planned, but we have a solid idea and a vision.

One of our partner's OA Projects brings soccer camps to war-stricken area's in Africa and hosts an annual event where groups of people around the world host an event called, "Play Soccer so They Can". Though we are a bit behind with the date (OA's events were held end of Sept), we are still planning our own twist on an already spectacular cause. We want to give soccer to kids who have disabilities while allowing them to contribute to kids in Africa. Professional soccer plays, vendors, spectators, prizes and a couple hours of fun for everyone. This is my dream, to host events and raise money that makes a real difference in the world.

Please consider sponsoring me per mile, as I run for freedom, peace, liberation, and love. What I am asking for is as little as $1 per mile ($26.20) to as much as your heart desires. I will post a list to see how much it would be per mile to sponsor me at different rates. If you can't contribute monetarily, you can still contribute by spreading the word. There are other ways that you can contribute as well such as making and holding a sign with a group of friends at a mile marker.

I hope you follow me on my journey of training and stay up to date on ways to support and get involved.

xo Love you all, Mo

SPONSORSHIPS

per mile / total
$1------$26.20
$2-----$52.40
$3-----$78.60
$4-----$104.80
$5-----$131,00
$10---$262.00
$15---$393.00
$20--$524.00
$25--$655.00
$50--$1,310.00

You can even team up with a group if that works better for you. We are so thankful to all of our friends, and supporters. We love you, and know that you are making a difference in the world.

I'm back...

Today is a big day.

Today I registered for the LA marathon (3/20)

Love you all!